What I have been trying to prevent by taking a year off, has finally happened.
My doctor tells me I have a burnout.
But don’t worry, this isn’t going to be a sad post. In fact, I feel just fine.
Or, rather, I don’t feel. So, I can’t be unhappy. Or sad.
But, let me start from the beginning.
A couple of days ago, I went to see my doctor. I had been feeling exhausted for months (years ?), I dreaded going to work, I had the feeling I just couldn’t do it anymore. I even had to take some days off.
Anyway. I was a bit (a lot) anxious about talking to my doctor ; she’s one of those people that look as if they haven’t been sick a day in their lives. Somewhat to my surprise however, she said almost right away that I had a burnout, and that she had been seeing many people with the same symptoms lately. (Way to go, society !)
I’m home until the end of the month, and I’m supposed to contact some psychologists for a talk … which I will do, but I’m not expecting much.
Since I was curious about how ‘professionals’ define burnouts, I decided to have a look around on the internet. All -I- know, is that burnouts are work-related, that it takes a while to get over one, and that it usually involves a lot of talking (yuk).
Here is a list of symptoms and some info, collected from various (Dutch) websites (*) :
Yeah … Looking at the list and seeing how many of my current ‘problems’ are on it …
It’s pretty obvious …
(*) Sources & interesting reads (Dutch) :