Three point five cats.

Sleep deprivation.

Januari 27, 2018 burnout
Sweet Dreams ...

For about a year now, I've been having problems sleeping.

During the day, I feel exhausted and I can barely keep my eyes open. Thinking coherent thoughts is almost impossible.
I long for evening to come, so I can finally get some sleep.

The moment I get in bed though, something funny happens inside my brain.
I'm suddenly wide awake. I feel as if I have tons of energy, and my minds shouts out : "Let's get up ! Let's do stuff !"

This can easily last the entire night.
Sometimes, I do get up and start my day, at two or three in the morning. All bleary-eyed, and with the knowledge that the rest of the day will not amount to very much ...

Sometimes, I manage to fall asleep for a couple of hours.
And then the dreams come.

Mostly nightmares, or hugely uncomfortable scenes.
And my mind just jumps from dream to dream, leaving me feeling exhausted in the morning.

I wish someone could recommend a good book to me. A book that would allow me to understand myself better.
Because if there's one thing I'm convinced of, it is that these dreams mean something.

I don't mean dream interpretation stuff like 'if you see an avalanche in your dreams, it signifies ...' (and yes, that was one of the many dreams I had last night. Next to being poisoned, and having cake with Trump. Really.)

I'm talking about ...
Well, I'm not sure what I'm talking about.
I just want to understand myself, so I can heal. Live a satisfying life.